HeartShadow

Manggagawa, frenzy, break

Swirl

Change

To out yourself with a relative on text isn’t so bad after all, especially if she already has some inkling of who you really are. But this is the slightest of changes. Changes that everyone goes through and have to deal with.

Looking back, I’ve gone through a lot of changes and with them, a lot of dealings. Lives have enriched me and deaths have challenged me. Changes in relationships, in intimacies, continue to mold me and even shake me. Wants and desires differ too, even while you search for who you really are. There are certain rights in being wrong but there are no truths in being false.

Everyone says that every human is resistant to change. It’s this momentum we build up on things that have become constant that comes to an abrupt halt that damages us so much. Friction was never meant for satisfaction in life but eventually we have to wipe off the skid marks to make things easier for us to at least look at. Eventually we’ll all learn to live with the changes around us.

The harder part is when changes happen to different people that you deeply care for. It’s lighter when you all experience the same event but when it differs from person to person, it tears you up. You’d want to know how to deal with it. You’d want to know what is too much. You’d want to do something but present situations, or even the future restrictions just can’t give you some leeway.

When distance comes into play, anxiety shoots up. But then again you would learn to accept things that you can’t control. Maybe I’ve given up some part of me for the temporary to ease things up but you know it won’t be worth the longest while.

Denial really is the first step to accepting things. And then you rationalize until you can’t rationalize anymore, until you’re too tired to. Grieving usually comes next until you again get tired. Then logic comes into play and it reminds you that you are in the present and the future waits for your decisions now. A fast car would take you somewhere only if you have the directions. Any direction would do as long as there’s movement. You’d eventually find your way to somewhere brighter. Or maybe you’ll find your way to somewhere in the past but this time things simply are better. Things could be improved, especially when the best weren’t given already.

Maybe change is the meaning of life.

Start of in between.

Silip/Providence

Vandal

LightFlowers

Floorflower

She/Her

Would she want me even if she knows me when I am bare? Naked I am in front of her, all my hang-ups known to her. People would push me to her, slightly off my semi-unattainable desire, slightly off my aches.
Her words and ears have held me in her arms as I wept on her shoulder. Maybe I was wishing I were against her bosom. Nevertheless, the comfort was appropriate.
She knows my mind and there is much to explore of her. I want to take her places where I might pick her brain. I want to know how to be with her, how to deal with her, how things could be with her.
She hasn't let her guard down and I want her innards laid that I might observe every inch.

Tanga Ako

Chasing Pavements - Adele

Ive made up my mind
dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right
dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world
i'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up
and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

yeaaah ehh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

ohhhh ohh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

BRANDY LYRICS

"Have You Ever?"

[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

Achievable Dream

Chasing Pavements