Borrowed

Patakan

HintayHilom

Can somebody translate?

Mother Store

Jeopardy

Charbroiled

Hold

It’s ironic that now that we’re done with things that could be, it’s now that I have a hand over you somehow. I didn’t plan this and the circumstances led us to this. You needed something from me at the point of our closure talk. I haven’t gotten over you completely yet, but there is some progress, I didn’t want to go to your every event anymore. I even replaced my schedule for your last to a date. I’m still adjusting my feelings. Hopefully at the time that we could meet for you to repay everything, I’d be done and we could be what we decided. See you in June.

My Room, My Bed

When did the confusion start? Did I really long for you. And just tonight you’re here right beside me. Not directly beside me but being in the same room as you is fine for me. He’s the one hugging you but our proximity is good enough as it is a really small room. You’re here, in my bed, with him. But you don’t know that he likes you. He cares for you deeply, maybe deeper than I can give you. Is it impossible for you to feel his love for you? Everybody is seeing it. Are you confused to let go of your self and give in to what could be? Are you so concerned with how society or your family would see you? Haven’t you understood that all the gifts were out of wanting you? But then, I don’t know, do I also want you too? Or do I want him? It doesn’t really matter now. You’re here, the two of you, in my room, in my bed.

Movements

Unending

Don't fall for me too much, I still have my inconsistencies. I still haven't forgotten the last and I'm not yet ready for the next. You keep on choosing me yet I know I can't deliver. Have I just been using you and you using me for what you feel?

LP Break

Cordillera

Vandals

HeartShadow

Manggagawa, frenzy, break

Swirl

Change

To out yourself with a relative on text isn’t so bad after all, especially if she already has some inkling of who you really are. But this is the slightest of changes. Changes that everyone goes through and have to deal with.

Looking back, I’ve gone through a lot of changes and with them, a lot of dealings. Lives have enriched me and deaths have challenged me. Changes in relationships, in intimacies, continue to mold me and even shake me. Wants and desires differ too, even while you search for who you really are. There are certain rights in being wrong but there are no truths in being false.

Everyone says that every human is resistant to change. It’s this momentum we build up on things that have become constant that comes to an abrupt halt that damages us so much. Friction was never meant for satisfaction in life but eventually we have to wipe off the skid marks to make things easier for us to at least look at. Eventually we’ll all learn to live with the changes around us.

The harder part is when changes happen to different people that you deeply care for. It’s lighter when you all experience the same event but when it differs from person to person, it tears you up. You’d want to know how to deal with it. You’d want to know what is too much. You’d want to do something but present situations, or even the future restrictions just can’t give you some leeway.

When distance comes into play, anxiety shoots up. But then again you would learn to accept things that you can’t control. Maybe I’ve given up some part of me for the temporary to ease things up but you know it won’t be worth the longest while.

Denial really is the first step to accepting things. And then you rationalize until you can’t rationalize anymore, until you’re too tired to. Grieving usually comes next until you again get tired. Then logic comes into play and it reminds you that you are in the present and the future waits for your decisions now. A fast car would take you somewhere only if you have the directions. Any direction would do as long as there’s movement. You’d eventually find your way to somewhere brighter. Or maybe you’ll find your way to somewhere in the past but this time things simply are better. Things could be improved, especially when the best weren’t given already.

Maybe change is the meaning of life.

Start of in between.

Silip/Providence

Vandal

LightFlowers

Floorflower

She/Her

Would she want me even if she knows me when I am bare? Naked I am in front of her, all my hang-ups known to her. People would push me to her, slightly off my semi-unattainable desire, slightly off my aches.
Her words and ears have held me in her arms as I wept on her shoulder. Maybe I was wishing I were against her bosom. Nevertheless, the comfort was appropriate.
She knows my mind and there is much to explore of her. I want to take her places where I might pick her brain. I want to know how to be with her, how to deal with her, how things could be with her.
She hasn't let her guard down and I want her innards laid that I might observe every inch.

Tanga Ako

Chasing Pavements - Adele

Ive made up my mind
dont need to think it over
if im wrong i am right
dont need to look no further
this aint lust i know this is love

but if i tell the world
i'll never say enough
cos it was not said to you
and thats exactly what i need to do
if i end up with you

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

i build myself up
and fly around in circles
waiting as my heart drops
and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

or should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there.
should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

yeaaah ehh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads no where,
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place
should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep on chasing pavements
should i just keep on chasing pavements

ohhhh ohh

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere
or would it be a waste
even if i knew my place should i leave it there

should i give up
or should i just keep chasing pavements
even if it leads nowhere

BRANDY LYRICS

"Have You Ever?"

[Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

Achievable Dream

Chasing Pavements

Ironic view...

...from the restroom of Jollibee

Murder Table

Stranger in the House

Overpowering the Sun

Left and Right

Maybe it's time to move on. Or maybe not. All I know is that I can't stay here forever. There are other much better opportunities just beyond the horizon. Of course, there would be costs for me. Things would change, things would be new. Maybe I should even learn a new language. In the long run, it would be worth it. There are going to be new people, new conquests. But I just don't want to love people behind. Communication would be there but physical presence is very different and it's really something that I long for. I haven't seen the offer yet but it's coming in a few. For now, there's a certification that I have to face first.

No Interest

you left your thumbprint inside me now for months it seems
but mine only brushes your soft surface

and somehow, somehow it leaves me listless,
my tongue curls under my lips, oh yes

so I cant speak to tell you of the months before I met you

No Greater Love

Waiting View

To Hold Such a Thing

Tingala

Third

Transition, Lost In

My friend Paolo, even from the start knew that my current job would just be transitional for me, as it was for him. He saw more potential in me than I had in myself when I was giving out my resumes to companies online. But still, I ended up to where I am. And I know I won't be staying for so long. Unless something great really happens.

For some reason, I've been hearing a lot about people getting out and wanting to get out of the company. Most reasons are logical and it's best for the person's personal growth to give a resignation letter to the management. I'd have to say that it is a bit demoralizing.

I do fit the mold of what person could live with what we get but I see it only as a now thing. I do live in the now but I take one step into the future and I know there are a lot of other opportunities with what I have. Cebu is calling me, though I haven't asked again recently, and others are just on the next block.

For me, enjoying your occupation is more important than getting much much money but maybe money will help my future now.

Everything's a dilemma in life and this decision affects what I should do with what I have right now.

Maybe what's got me thinking is the amount of news I've heard recently, or maybe I should just be looking more into what could be. I definitely need to dream again.

For now, I'd stare at the clouds.

I want my Passion!

I had a quick instant messaging conversation with my aunt and it went to her how her passion, that she discovered just recently has given her much joy in life.

I have already graduated a jack-of-all-trades business course and I'm in my first job. I'm enjoying it but it feels like I wouldn't do this all my life. The pay is just fine for someone in my situation but I'm a person who also thinks of what's ahead of me. I might get promoted someday but I'm not sure if it would be rewarding enough for the changes that would happen to the way I live.

I've always wanted to have my own business but I don't have the means and the expertise right now. And so I work. Yet I'm not exactly sure of my work right now. The experience is totally enjoyable but the turnover is really fast and maybe I'll be part of that quickening pace.

Maybe I'll survive, maybe I'll switch, I haven't decided yet. But one thing's for sure, my decision would start a ripple.

Can't locate my passion yet but for now, I'd have my Raspberry Passion Iced Tea.

Relationship?

What is it to have a relationship? I keep asking people and no one has ever given me a concrete answer.

Where I am right now, the one I'm dating and I have started questioning about the conventions of this world. Mostly it's him but his words have made me think. Would the status of becoming "us" change a lot of things between us?

We're living separate lives but there's something in between us. The thing is, we do not define where we are based on how the usual relationship goes. Although we can talk about it on our own terms.

Whatever the case, are there essentials on what could be called a relationship?